i have come to wonder in the last couple of days, if it is healthy to have a different way of dealing with friendships with different people. i realize that sounds off so ill try to explain.
when i am with my large group of friends i know that if i'm rude to them they will not take it personally and often poke fun, however with a separate friend i must constantly monitor my behaviors so as to not set them off. i find i am a completely different friend.
the average Hannah is a yell first then apologize if need be while the hannah i am with my singular friend is polite and giving. personally i would never think of myself that way, but it has become necessary.
i feel the friendship is important but i find myself wondering if its worth giving up the essence of me.
all in all i think this friend and i have a lot to learn and for now i just like being there for them and having them there.
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